“WHAT THE HELL WAS I THINKING?”

Suffice to say Britney Spears is doing better now than she was a year ago.  And now, for the first time, Britney will talk about her very public meltdown in a 90-minute documentary.  According to the Daily Mail, Brit says loneliness and insecurity were the catalysts of a deep depression, which led to her erratic behavior.

'I sit there and I look back and I'm like, "I'm a smart person. What the hell was I thinking?"' Spears said in an interview to air on MTV on Nov. 30, two days before the release of her new album.'I've been through a lot in the past two or three years, and there's a lot that people don't know.''Sometimes I think I get kind of lonely because you don't open the gate up that much, you know I mean?' she continues.'You're guarded. You have to be that way, so I'm kind of stuck in this place and it's like: How do you deal? And you just cope, and that's what I do. I just cope with it, every day.'

Sometimes I wonder if I'm partially to blame for this climate of cruelty and harassment.   I look inside myself and thi… wait a second.  Look at that.  It's like a shammy, it's like a towel, it's like a sponge.  It’s for the house, the car, the boat, the RV.  IT does the work!  Why do I wanna work twice as hard?  I have got to order one of those later.  What?  20 MINUTES!?!?  AHHH!  I GOTTA GO!!!

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